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Name: Rachel
Birthday: 4/10/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: writing and singing songs on my guitar, theatre, tennis, movies, friends, and all that fun stuff.
Expertise: hmm, i wish i could say that i was expert and something really awesome, but i'm just pretty average i guess. i'm not complaining though, it could be worse.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  RachelLeilani
Member Since:
3/27/2004
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| sometimes i feel guilty for not enjoying life like i should. don't get me wrong i have fun and i have happy moments, but for the most part i feel like i am just existing. my goal is to get from point a to point b (whatever that may be) i rush around thinking once i get to the next step somehow life will be easier and i will finally have time to enjoy it, but that next step is just one more in the never ending journey of my life. it never slows down and it never stops going, and i feel like i can't balance everything. i have everything i could really want: a relationship with God, a good family, a great boyfriend that i love, nice apartment, good job, and some amazing friends. so looking at all of the that i should be so happy, and even though i realize how lucky i am to have all of this it doesn't seem to click in my mind sometimes. i don't know what it is that i want to runaway from, or what is keeping me from enjoying everything right in front of me. the thing i get most frustrated with is myself. i want to just have fun and be happy, but i'm not and i can't figure out why. instead i just draw back into this vulnerable state where i become fragile to the touch and just don't look anyone in the eye. | | |
| ok so i know it has been like awhile since i have written on here, but i have been really busy. wow a lot has happened in the past year or so... i have moved twice and now live by myself. i thought i was in love then my heart broken and repaired then he proposed and i was engaged and broke it off, and now am with the guy which is perfect for me. i'm totally in love with and couldnt be happier. i quit waitressing and h&m now i am a manager at torrid. i love workig there. so that is the recent updated life i guess | | |
| ok i have to make this really short because i'm suppose to be in class in a few minutes. anyways life has been decent. i LOVE my new apartment!!! it is so great, and i'm happy to say yes, i have been behaving. hehe! i have been sooooo busy lately. school = homework = no time = ahhhhhhh yah between work and school i don't have a lot of free time. oh and this week my stupid laptop decided to be a pain in the butt and break. now it looks liuke i have to get a new harddrive which means i have to spend more money on that worthless piece of crap! other than that things have been going pretty good. i have even been able to keep my apartment clean. amazing right? ok well i have to go before i'm late. class......... no please stop........ the torture....... ok well i will try to update sooner next time. have a great week everyone!  | | |
| i'm just curious and i want to hear lots of opinions...... if u have ever been in love with someone (or if u haven't but think u know what it is) please describe what u think love is........ | | |
| i think i found the perferct apartment! wohoo! em and i are gonna go check it out hopefully this week or next. allow me to share my excitment for a few of the wonderful things: we would each get our own bathroom (that will save us from some fights im sure) haha and ooh it has a fireplace and a really nice pool. i can't wait. it is on st joe rd. it doesn't look to far from ipfw. now the only thing we have to wait for is emily to get a loan to pay for school then we are all set. | | |
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